Introvert Indigo

What is this?
Why am I doing this?
Shall I be anonymous?
Do I need a niche?
What would my niche even be?

So many questions… a couple of answers.

I find writing therapeutic. I like editing and designing. I have a lot of opinions!

As a recovering control freak, my life changed for the better when I stopped trying to plan everything ahead of time and account for every potential outcome.

I had a manager who had some great ideas, but no idea how she was going to get to the result. One time, she wanted to make a sculpture out of Mod Roc bandages by the end of the day, and it was already lunchtime. We didn’t have any Mod Roc and couldn’t buy any because we’d already exceeded the budget, there was no way. She persevered, she was sure this sculpture was going to happen. I had checked the store cupboard twice, but on the third time, it appeared. The box of Mod Roc… it was like magic.

Around the same time, I realised how “jammy” my partner was. He had the luck of the Irish and usually always landed on his feet. He would dice with death and get away with it unscathed.

I wondered if my cautious ways were holding me back. So, I tried letting caution go. I would say “yes” to something because I liked the idea and decided the details would follow.

I saw a job vacancy I liked the look of, but didn’t think I was qualified for it, but applied anyway. I got the job! Past me wouldn’t have applied, I’d have convinced myself out of it.

This new attitude is how I got a hamster. One day I woke up and felt like walking down the river. At the end of the river was a pet shop. In the pet shop, my partner and I got chatting to the owner and they told us they had pets for sale upstairs. We went upstairs to have a look and saw the cutest Syrian hamster. We weren’t allowed pets in our flat, we had a housemate that was allergic to hamsters, and we had no supplies. But we got her anyway! We had Sooki for just over a year, and got so much joy out of caring for her.

When I started writing this piece I didn’t know where it was going to go, but I’m pleased with where it’s ended up.

I think the universe will do you a favour for taking risks.

How do I sign-off these things?

… Introvert Indigo 🌱